Jess Knits a bit

Aint goin' no where.....

OK so its been wayyyy too long….I'm just chugging along lately and the chugs are getting further and further apart. I have done nothing creative what so ever. Although I guess maybe I'm lying because I did end up finishing my coffee table which had been sitting in pieces for about oh 8 or 9 months now. SO it looks ok. We had home depot cut the original 4 pieces of wood and I think they were off a little. We(as in the ex we were hanging out just being "friends" for a while) got the table saw out, that we probably shouldn't be using since it's the landlords and we didn't ask but its just sitting there all lonely in the basement yearning to be powered up, and cut 2 of the pieces in half and they were really right on for being in half but when its not cut right in the first place…....

SO anyway we start putting them together and just ended up getting frustrated and just put it together slightly off because we were running out of time. But I still got compliments on it. And I think Steve and I are probably the only ones who'd notice it.

Anyway that was all in preperation for my bday. I don't usually do bdays its just another day but then again the past 2 yrs it’s a reason to get the people I care about together and they have to come cause its my Bday…hehe. SO I just had 3 of my cousins over Tara, Jess and Erin who is my cousin form my mom's side and that was exciting because I hardly ever get to see her and we weren't really close growing up. So it was great getting to know her a little a bit. Plus she brought her dog Kitty who is a white boxer and her and Cecillia played for hrs. The yard was ripped up after the 2 of them were through running around. My cousins each brought there S.O.'s, Lee and Darci, Derek and Erin and Dave and Danielle. So it was a great night a bunch of crazy different people mingling together. Then Steve left in a huge huff in utter and complete ridiculousness, over a $5 poker game. Great, thanks.

Then Saturday Lee took me to the Sox and we met up with Darci and her friend Carrie after the game. And I spent the entire rest of the long weekend on the couch doing nothing.

This past weekend met up with Jess and Lauren for dinner on Fri night we went to Solas at the Lenox Hotel downtown. It was pretty good relaxing they didn't rush us at all. Saturday I was industrious woke up early went and cashed in all my bottles to the tune of $24.80 then went to Shaws and turned in all my old plastic shopping bags for recycling. And then headed down to Uncasville CT for Tara's bday celebration at Mohegan Sun. I had a really good time hanging out with the ladies (Lee, Darci, Tara and Kathy) The casino was well…not Vegas. Hard(impossible) to get drinks unless you're at a table but the tables were all full and the low limits were $20. I can't afford that. Although I guess had I spent my money on the tables I wouldn't have had to spend it on the drinks…. So anyway all that to tell you how I made my table….and now I am helping Lee with the colors for her condo…..I have the colors picked out Lee approved them last night now I'm working on drawing up a sketch of it. I also want to do this fantastic wall with both the living and dining room colors accent it with gold or bronze leaf and dark brown paint and use the mirror they already have as an accent. It's gonna look fabulous! So no knitting or sewing lately but I am heading over Jess' house on Sunday to help her with a sewing project and maybe I'll get a little knitting done myself in between sips of Jess' bday present, a bottle of Frog's Leap! Yeah!

"God" Damn

Extreme Make Over Home Edition: After Katrina.
Ignore all my insignificant blogs...my problems? What problems? I have a house, my family is still alive. This damn show does it to me everytime....fuuuuuck!

Its Friday night

and I'm sitting at home....I had today off of work and was supposed to get a whole lot of stuff done but spent the morning looking for a new roommate.....
So yesterday I decided to drive my car to work instead of take the train. I parked at a meter and went out 25 minutes late to 'feed' it and got a ticket 10 minutes earlier ...so the dude must have been standing there just waiting for my time to run out....So anyway my fault I shoulda been on time. I take the ticket off the window put my dollar in for another two hrs. So I made sure to go out on time and I walk out and there's a boot on my car...WTF????
I paid all my parking tickets in Dec so I could get my car inspected because I think you won't pass if your in a nonrenewal status, so I call up and I had 3 tickets from last April and may.???? I swear to god I've paid these already but it doesn't matter I have to bring them proof that I paid them, still pay the full amount to get the boot off and if they decide I did in fact pay the tickets they will issue me a refund.... So I scrounge up the $325 to be able to drive my car home.
I get back to work after going to pay the fucking City of Cambridge and decide that since my roommate did not respond to my text message on Sat, requesting that he pay the other $220 he owes me for the bills, I would send him another txt message.
"U absolutely NEED to leave the rest of the money u owe for bills tnite or first thing tmorrow am."
I wait half an hour but no response. So I call up and leave him a voice mail.
Adrian its Jess I'm calling you just in case your text messages aren't working today......
   ...side note the first time, about a week and a half into his residence here, I asked him for money, the $400 last months rent that should've been paid before he moved in, he told me he didn't get the message his phone was broke....and oh yeah the check bounced and I had to drive to his work to get cash...
to ask you to bring by, no you NEED, to come by with the rest of the bill money. The oil bill was 2 months overdue and I had to come up with the money because we needed more and they wouldn't fill it without it being paid. So my personal bills are on hold right now. I made it perfectly clear how much bills were before you moved in and that they needed to be paid on time. If I could afford to pay them myself I wouldn't have got a roommate. If you could give me a call I'd appreciate it.....

So apparently this message did the trick...I finally got a response out of him...he sent me a text message...
Obviously this is not working. Neither one of us is comfortable at all. I'll have my stuff out by this weekend. Use my deposit for whatever I owe you.

Okay asshole the only thing I'm uncomfortable with is someone who doesn't pay their bills. Had you not ignored my requests for money from day 1 and then the very first check you write me bounces and you don't even apologize for it when I have to drive to your work to get cash so the checks I sent out, after I deposited it, wouldn't bounce. Then had you not ignored me and told me your phone was broken every time I tried to communicate with you I wouldn't have a problem at all.
I stayed in my bedroom all the time so you had complete run of the apartment. I hung out with you and all your friends on super bowl.  I invited you to play poker with me and my friends. I was the only  one that cleaned, not just do my own dishes but actually cleaned, swept up and cleaned the toilet and the sink, vacuumed. We hardly ever even saw each other. I wasn't home when you were and you weren't when I was. It was a pretty good arrangement except I had balls enough to keep on you for the bills (especially since every time I saw you you had a new Banana bag in your hand so why couldn't you pay bills)...and apparently that made you uncomfortable. FUCK YOU!!!!

So after all that looking for a roommate which sucks because I think I scare people off with my honesty and straight forwardness Amy called me with  a favor so I spent lunch with her and got back around 3:30 then I vacuumed my car and went to get it washed came back did the dishes separated the recycling and then came on here and saw a comment on my ex's page from the new hang out buddy. So now I'm even more pissed off and depressed and instead of finishing my cleaning I did nothing. Woo hoo things are great right now
So really this is good I'll be spending time with my new nephew and my old nephew tomorrow(so pics soon) and then plan on drowning myself in booze at the St Pats parade in southie on Sun....
Arrgggh!!!!!

Manic monday....

How does one person do so much damage? Or I guess make someone else hurt so much. I spent most of yesterday crying. Over movies, over commercials, just thinking, over non-communication. Seriously WTF? I don't understand how someone who has been in a relationship for 4 1/2 yrs with someone they supposedly consider their best friend can so quickly and easily go out with someone else. How do you not constantly think about the other person. Just seems like they never cared in the first place. Aggh I shouldn't even think twice about it…I wish there was some sort of class that teaches how to let go and how to get rid of feelings like they do…thing is I know if the situation were reversed and I started talking to someone I still wouldn't be able to just let go so easily…maybe I'm just crazy and maybe I should have taken my meds the past few days……You don't realize what they do until you stop taking them. I spent this morning trying not to cry too.

Anyway my car is done and am about to go pick it up….so new clutch, fixed rotor or something all for $100. Thank goodness for Karma again cause if my clutch waited another week to go I'd be paying for it myself. So woo hoo!

And now I get to go visit my new nephew Aiden(check out pic)since I can drive again.

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I feel like shit....I've been stuck in my house by myself for the past day. My car went into the shop Wed night because the clutch went and after dealing with assholes that talked down to me treated me like a dumb "girl", telling me the Mass lemon law doesn't really cover clutches, its a grey area and we're asking you to pay for half of it. I tell them no way I'll pay the $100 the law requires me to and thats it. So I call yesterday and couldn't get anyone. called again no one was in the shop and I need to call back around 3 to see if I can pick it up.  Call back, he's not there, call again so I call again talk to some dude that I can't fucking understand and the cars not done. somethings bent(sounded like rotor but I have no idea what he said) and they are fixing that. So I should be able to pick it up on Monday....but I have to call back and see.
So I can't even go out to see my new nephew who was born yesterday.Arrghh. I did get to hang out with Amy and Kris Fri night and went to see Lee's new condo and then went to Filenes  with Lee and Darci yesterday afternoon but other than that I'm going fucking nuts stuck in this house.
So fuck it....I'm going to start going out with these eharmony guys....I've been talking to,if you can call it that, one and have already been asked to meet and see if there's chemistry. If so then I've been invited to fly down to the Grand Cayman on the 23rd to stay with his family at their place there for a day then fly over to Cayman Brac and stay at his family's house THERE for 3 days, get up go take pictures for the new photography business he's starting with his dad. Then fly back to Grand Cayman and be back on Monday afternoon. Oh yeah he'll help out with the plain ticket to Grand C if I can't make the full amount and then he'll straight up pay for the island hopper to Cay Brac. WTF?????
I should be so super excited and I should just go, yet I'm upset about my exbf possibly(probably) bringing his new "we just hangout buddy" to a show last night.....so pissed! I was there for 4 1/2 yrs and he waited until he had someone else to finally let go. String me along like there might be something to fix or work out and then the instant someone else comes along it becomes oh I'm not sure what to do. Not be completely like can't do this anymore but Leave me hanging just in case this doesn't work out for him.
Arrrgghhh. Fuck it he's fine so am I.
I guess it working out Ok. I keep getting matched with engineers and  Harvard professors or ups and mailroom workers? How's that work out? I guess I could look at it like I'm well rounded, right? sometimes I feel like just hiding in a hole yet I'm stuck at my house for a day and going crazy. FUUUUUCK!
So Anyway  I swear to god someday I'll post a more coherent entry but I've posted a couple new pics....check it!